What am I doing?

First post... This blog is intended for me, but I reckon others will see it eventually as well. For now, I will attempt to put that out of mind.

As I write a cover letter for a job application, it occurs to me that I am stymied because of a fundamental tension between how I believe I must project myself in order to be employable ("I have a deep knowledge of...") vs. my rather real internal dialog ("I have very little knowledge about a great many things...")

I think this may be one of the reasons why I so dread the job search process and am willing to procrastinate on it mightily when the costs are so extraordinarily high, both financially and relationally with my wife and family.